If you only knew
If you only knew
If you only knew,
Your smile, is the beginning of my heartbeat,
Will you slowly let our memories fade?
If I ceased to tell you how I felt, back when we first met.
If you only knew,
Your eyes, is the caused of my tears,
Will you ever admit, it has suffered all these years?
But letting you go takes forever, as it has been my biggest fear.
If you only knew,
Your heartbeat is the reason that I’m alive.
Will you ever know, it has merged into a beautiful rhythm in my life?
But if you chose to go, then will all these be worthwhile?
Of all these, Maybe you already knew,
Your scent, is the only part I could ever have,
Your smile, is at the only place where memories are kept,
And your heartbeat shall forever beat (for me) a distance away.
By: Adam K.
( 18.11.09 )
This was written for those who knew but refused to accept things as it is. It's been a long while since i wrote something like this. In other words, i am trying to sharpen up my writing skills...again. LOL
Labels: Musings
Bad Working Environment - The Old Lady
I've been fixating my ass in this cubicle for the past 15 months.
I gotta be honest, it is killing me. Slowly....
This place is emitting bad vibes. Seriously. * I had been losing my bets since the beginning of the year.
There are too many female workers around and THAT is a problem.
I wish to remind everyone that i am not being prejudice towards anyone or any kind of ladies but then again something just doesn’t seem right at all.
While others would give up an arm or a leg to be in my shoes, i on the other hand would give up my all if it means getting out of this sickening place.
Before i further digress, let me share with you about the little problems that i am facing currently. The tiny ones;
The Old Lady:
The young lady who used to sit in front of me has left to pastures new and her replacement is another lady who is nearing her 50's. That digit alone is causing much concern to me.
The alarm bells started to ring a fortnight ago when she refused to accept my kind gesture in offering her a bite-size piece of moon cake and knowing myself well, i do not take rejection lightly, what more to say in front of my colleagues.
Did i also forget about her reluctance in offering words of appreciation?? Not at all.
I guess i’ll never know and get to grips with the real reason behind her refusal towards my goodwill gesture but I hope it has nothing to do with medical issues such as diabetes because I am fully aware of how moon cakes are so sweet and rich in sugar… in nature.
This whole saga troubled me to a certain extent that i started to doubt my abilities in communicating with the ( old ) much matured ladies. I had sleepless nights resulting from it, i started to lose my appetite ever since and i even had visions of myself being rejected as I tried to fit in with the ladies, over and over and over again.
I was unable to cope with the rejection. It affected my work performance and it certainly made matters worse as I had to deal with another extremely demanding girl friend at home. My world literally crumbled upon me in a blink of an eye. It came to a point where I contemplated on volunteering myself to be sent into isolation, registering myself into one of the nearest psychiatric wards to recuperate, to stay clear from being hurt and vice versa.
Anyway, I’m known to exaggerate matters beyond description. So, just in case my relatives or friends who happen to read this thinks that I am starting to lose myself, I assure you that I am not.
So after her initial rejection towards the moon cake ( I know it’s a small deal ) , I embarrassingly admit that I went to my friends for answers & guidance because basically, the only ones who could think out of the box and to see things through all ridiculously impossible angles and perspectives are them.
You see, from what i “heard” from my friends is that if you meet ladies with serious issues, it’s either they did not received some the night before, or they are surprisingly a virgin – An Old One. I said i “heard” but I do not know if it is the truth, but this particular lady who earlier refused my kind gesture are displaying the sort of attitude, behavior and characteristics which my friends were talking about all this while.
I guess I’ll just say that this myth is plausible.
Labels: My Randoms
Perv in the office
Everyone's walking pass me in slow mo. Times ticking much slower than usual. I guess it's the sheer lackluster that's infesting this whole damn office and my colleagues.
I just realized that one of this prominent decision-maker in my office is kind of a perv. You're not gonna trick me into telling you. Not so fast yet.
His much questionable attitudes towards males is very much in the spotlight now.
Labels: My Randoms
New Colleague
There's a new colleague in office. It's a she. She told some of the office girls i looked familiar to her. What are her intentions of doing so. I am leaving this for everyone to ponder.
Labels: My Randoms
Baby, are there any good jobs out there?
Okay. Just in case any good samaritans readers who happens to drop by decides to lend me a hand, i SERIOUSLY am looking for a new job, better, a new career path.
The reason i am writing this out is of cause, i need a better pay and a new challenge.
Anyone with good advice on how to deal with my situation is very much appreciated.
Sincerely,
Adam Kuek
Text me @ 014 687 9316
Labels: Self Discovery
Please Help Your Furry Friends
Isn't this typical behaviour of Malaysians? When there is no longer any need of us they just discard you..
About 300 stray dogs were rounded up by Pulau Ketam residents and deported to an isolated island to fend for themselves.Over half of them are already dead and the remaining ones may not live long. A rescue mission is being mounted and your help is needed.
If you have a heart, please help by going through http://www.mycen.com.my/rescue .
To donate or help, e-mail TV Smith at tvsmith@mycen.com.my or Sabrina Yeap at yeapwen@yahoo.com.
Labels: News
Like a leopard that never loses it's spots
Drowning with all the thoughts of feeling lost,
How would life passed me by,
Will you eventually see me as yours,
Or a reflection of the person that used to be in your life.
-adamkuek-11-04-09
Labels: Musings
That gentle pat..
What do you do when your boss gives you that very odd and gentle pat on the back?
Yes, this morning as i was tidying up some of my worklots, he came from the rear behind, laid his 70++ hands on my right shoulder and grin cheesily at me.
For once, i was totally lost as to what it ( the lascivious look ) really meant, as he is not known to be one 0f those very approachable type.
So, i was taken back by his rather sneaky approach that i hastily asked about what he was doing. To my relieve, he was actually bringing in some of his relative's home grown banana's for my colleagues.
As i was unable to hold my own after receiving one of his so-called power pat that i unknowingly ask were the banana's his, of course in a very subtle manner.
Hell, the banana's certainly looked ripe and elongated. Much like how a male's reproductive system is. Somehow that question got my boss in stiches.
I am taking a wild shot that he was thinking about probably something which i was thinking as well. By the way, despite that rude awakening, i was delighted that each & every part of my bodily appendages stayed intact , for now.
You never know what might happen when a much older & lonely guy meets a rather younger and energetic guy like me. You go figure.
Labels: My Randoms
